I know it's early, but I just had to write this. LoL..I'm still very happy about what happened last night/ this morning. But earlier (like, ten minutes ago) I was having doubts. I began to think, "Well, he did drink last night. Maybe he was just being a drunk schmuck and now he regrets/ forgot the whole thing! *gasp*"
And then I looked down my buddy list and saw his away message, which made me laugh happily. It read, "Well, there's no use in hiding it anymore. All my away messages have been about you."
!!!!!!!
How sweet. I was kinda hoping they were about me, but I tend to be very stupid, so I thought there was a chance that it wasn't. LoL.
Okay...gotta finish this project.
Friday, September 5, 2008
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Finally!
Okay, so I am very happy!!!! VERY HAPPY! I was FINALLY asked out by the guy I like. And I was hoping he liked me and would ask me out, but he didn't. Especially after last weekend. We spent all friggin Saturday night together, watched two movies together and then even went to a concert that had a fireworks show! And did homeboy make a move? Uh...I'll give you three guesses and the first two don't count.
Well, he finally asked me out tonight, over AIM. *sigh* not really romantic, but I'll get over it. LoL. This is what he said:
Him: haha, w/e. i know you're not calling me, i'm not calling you either because i've never tired to figure out the phone and wouldn't be able to right now, but i know more than people realize. No matter who I talk to and what I know, it doesn't change that i'm crazy about you (say i'm drunk, nothing is spelled wrong) and it doesn't change that I know you like me too. so, the only question I have is, where do we go from here? that's up to you, you already know what i would want
Me (in shock): wow, that was alot. so are you asking me out then?
Him: i know... would rather not ask you out on AIM, but it kinda happend..i can only appologize for that. i really meant to just drop mad hints and then ask you out tomorrow night..
Me (Dancing like crazy in my chair): lmao...haha, well that was a big hint...lol
Him: at least we have the same interest then. i totally didn't mean to say anything until i was going to swing by unannounced tomorrow, i guess i/m not good at secret keeping...but at the same time, in all honesty you already knew
Me: lol...I was hoping I knew..but then I thought that maybe I was just hallucinating or something
Him: can't even laugh at that, because it wouldn't be the first time for me either...i mean i could tell, but i really didn't let myself believe (beause I've been wrong before)...idk..i'm just glad i wasn't. you have now idea how hard it was not to kiss you during the fireworks the other night..
Me (well well WELL!!): you should have!!I wanted to kill you, seriously
Him: there was so many ppl around..i thought you would kill me if i did! do you think it would have been too perfect? i mean the fireworks and all? how hollywood. but at the same time it was too perfect to pass up...and here i come almost a week late telling you how much i wanted too...
Yeh buddy, you definitely were a week too late to tell me. If I didn't like him so much, I'd hurt him. Haha. I'm sooo trying to play this off cool, and it's not working. Haha...I'm really happy. I feel like a new woman...well, sorta. Thank you Lord for letting this happen! Yay!
Well, he finally asked me out tonight, over AIM. *sigh* not really romantic, but I'll get over it. LoL. This is what he said:
Him: haha, w/e. i know you're not calling me, i'm not calling you either because i've never tired to figure out the phone and wouldn't be able to right now, but i know more than people realize. No matter who I talk to and what I know, it doesn't change that i'm crazy about you (say i'm drunk, nothing is spelled wrong) and it doesn't change that I know you like me too. so, the only question I have is, where do we go from here? that's up to you, you already know what i would want
Me (in shock): wow, that was alot. so are you asking me out then?
Him: i know... would rather not ask you out on AIM, but it kinda happend..i can only appologize for that. i really meant to just drop mad hints and then ask you out tomorrow night..
Me (Dancing like crazy in my chair): lmao...haha, well that was a big hint...lol
Him: at least we have the same interest then. i totally didn't mean to say anything until i was going to swing by unannounced tomorrow, i guess i/m not good at secret keeping...but at the same time, in all honesty you already knew
Me: lol...I was hoping I knew..but then I thought that maybe I was just hallucinating or something
Him: can't even laugh at that, because it wouldn't be the first time for me either...i mean i could tell, but i really didn't let myself believe (beause I've been wrong before)...idk..i'm just glad i wasn't. you have now idea how hard it was not to kiss you during the fireworks the other night..
Me (well well WELL!!): you should have!!I wanted to kill you, seriously
Him: there was so many ppl around..i thought you would kill me if i did! do you think it would have been too perfect? i mean the fireworks and all? how hollywood. but at the same time it was too perfect to pass up...and here i come almost a week late telling you how much i wanted too...
Yeh buddy, you definitely were a week too late to tell me. If I didn't like him so much, I'd hurt him. Haha. I'm sooo trying to play this off cool, and it's not working. Haha...I'm really happy. I feel like a new woman...well, sorta. Thank you Lord for letting this happen! Yay!
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Boyish good looks
I have to admit, watching Everybody Loves Raymond makes me laugh so hard. I'm sure my roommates think I'm crazy whenever I watch tv, because I laugh hysterically at every little thing. Call it what you want, but at least I'm having a good time. :)
This is one of the quotes that happened to be on that night.It's about how Marie keeps going and judging the girls for not being virgins before marriage, but then they discover that Marie was no pure one when she was married either.
Marie Barone: Fine! You got it out of me. Your father and I... succumbed to temptation before we got married. I fell for your father's boyish good looks. But, it didn't matter. We were in love. Right, Frank?
Frank Barone: I wanted sex.
This is one of the quotes that happened to be on that night.It's about how Marie keeps going and judging the girls for not being virgins before marriage, but then they discover that Marie was no pure one when she was married either.
Marie Barone: Fine! You got it out of me. Your father and I... succumbed to temptation before we got married. I fell for your father's boyish good looks. But, it didn't matter. We were in love. Right, Frank?
Frank Barone: I wanted sex.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
A sorrowful night
Okay, so I thought I'd share this with everyone. Over the summer one of my classmates died. During his freshman year he developed a cancerous tumor on his spine, so he had that removed and came back to school the following year. Over the year he came down with leukemia and had to leave again. Over the summer the doctors told him he just needed two more weeks of observation and he could come back to school. Well, during that two week time period, he died.
As per tradition, whenever a fellow classmate dies the entire school (all 4000 plus) put on our uniform and go stand outside together in silence. This was my first time participating in this, and it was emotional. I wish I could show you what it was like to see everyone standing there in silence, all the lights off in tribute to this person's life.
At 1130, TAPS was played by two trumpets very beautifully. Immediately following that, a cannon was fired and then two bagpipe players sounded with Amazing Grace. People were crying and I was close to tears myself, even though I didn't know the guy. It's just so powerful to feel the emotions coursing through everyone, for this person's life. For the life they could no longer have here on Earth.
The Alma Mater was sang by the Choir and everyone joined in singing with hushed voices, some choked with tears. And after that, everyone put their hats back on and silently walked back to their rooms. The ceremony was just so beautiful that I couldn't help but wonder if people would feel the same way if I died, even if they didn't know me.
And then I began to think, our classmate was in pain. And he fought--twice. He fought to live and come back to us, but the Lord had other plans. I hope, with all my heart and soul, that he is in heaven, pain-free and happy. I hope he can finally rest and enjoy and smile at the fact that we call came out to be one with him, if even for a short while.
As per tradition, whenever a fellow classmate dies the entire school (all 4000 plus) put on our uniform and go stand outside together in silence. This was my first time participating in this, and it was emotional. I wish I could show you what it was like to see everyone standing there in silence, all the lights off in tribute to this person's life.
At 1130, TAPS was played by two trumpets very beautifully. Immediately following that, a cannon was fired and then two bagpipe players sounded with Amazing Grace. People were crying and I was close to tears myself, even though I didn't know the guy. It's just so powerful to feel the emotions coursing through everyone, for this person's life. For the life they could no longer have here on Earth.
The Alma Mater was sang by the Choir and everyone joined in singing with hushed voices, some choked with tears. And after that, everyone put their hats back on and silently walked back to their rooms. The ceremony was just so beautiful that I couldn't help but wonder if people would feel the same way if I died, even if they didn't know me.
And then I began to think, our classmate was in pain. And he fought--twice. He fought to live and come back to us, but the Lord had other plans. I hope, with all my heart and soul, that he is in heaven, pain-free and happy. I hope he can finally rest and enjoy and smile at the fact that we call came out to be one with him, if even for a short while.
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Flying away
Sometimes I wonder what it's like to be a bird. Just to be able to soar through the sky and experience a taste of freedom that can't be easily attained. Haven't you ever just wanted to feel a sense of contentment and freedom. To be up so high with nothing holding you back? It would be lovely to do as you pleased and yet be a part
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Virginity is like a bubble. One prick, all gone.
Sometimes I wonder why I am waiting for marriage before I give myself up. I have many reasons, I suppose. But sometimes I can't help but question my decision to remain pure until my wedding night.
I suppose I see it as some sort of ultimate gift that I want to give to my husband. You know, something like, "Hey baby! I waited ______ years, saving this for YOU!". Haha. I mean, who wouldn't want someone to have saved the one pure part of themselves for you, even though they probably hadn't even met you yet.
But then I also wonder if my future husband won't try to pressure me into having sex with him. I mean, how will I know if he is the one...before he proposes and I'm SURE he's the one. I know, I know. If he loves me he won't pressure me...blah blah. But the honest to God truth is not everyone has the same ideals I have.
More than likely he will have been sexually active and I'm sure going from having the whole kit and kaboodle to nada has got to be a bit disconcerting. In addition, why not have sex to show that you love and care for one another, but also want to explore each other in a different way.
Just random thoughts of mine. No matter how many times I think about this, I am a little wistful about the fact that I won't know what all the hype is about until that night. But I will maintain my virginity. I know I will..but sometimes it's nice to feel rebellious and think about being naughty. *wink*
I suppose I see it as some sort of ultimate gift that I want to give to my husband. You know, something like, "Hey baby! I waited ______ years, saving this for YOU!". Haha. I mean, who wouldn't want someone to have saved the one pure part of themselves for you, even though they probably hadn't even met you yet.
But then I also wonder if my future husband won't try to pressure me into having sex with him. I mean, how will I know if he is the one...before he proposes and I'm SURE he's the one. I know, I know. If he loves me he won't pressure me...blah blah. But the honest to God truth is not everyone has the same ideals I have.
More than likely he will have been sexually active and I'm sure going from having the whole kit and kaboodle to nada has got to be a bit disconcerting. In addition, why not have sex to show that you love and care for one another, but also want to explore each other in a different way.
Just random thoughts of mine. No matter how many times I think about this, I am a little wistful about the fact that I won't know what all the hype is about until that night. But I will maintain my virginity. I know I will..but sometimes it's nice to feel rebellious and think about being naughty. *wink*
Funn-ny
I was watching one of my favorite shows, The Secret Life of the American Teenager, when this dialogue happened that made me crack up!
The boy is trying to figure out who his girlfriend fantasizes about when she masturbates. He's particuarly angry because she denys him sex but pleasures herself.
Girl: I came over here just to tell you that you're an idiot.
Boy: Why is that? Because I didn't know about your boyfriend? Or boyfriends?
Girl: No. Because I'm thinking about you! I'm fantasizing about you. I have this whole story where we're married and we're in Paris and we're on a balcony and you RIP the dress off!
*And then they kiss*
The boy is trying to figure out who his girlfriend fantasizes about when she masturbates. He's particuarly angry because she denys him sex but pleasures herself.
Girl: I came over here just to tell you that you're an idiot.
Boy: Why is that? Because I didn't know about your boyfriend? Or boyfriends?
Girl: No. Because I'm thinking about you! I'm fantasizing about you. I have this whole story where we're married and we're in Paris and we're on a balcony and you RIP the dress off!
*And then they kiss*
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